Wednesday, May 5, 2010

What a Year Can Do

I remember a year ago, yesterday. May 4th. It was the due date that came and went. It was the date we had hoped would bring us a baby. But it was the due date of our second miscarriage. It was a beautiful day, just like yesterday. Sun shining. A visit and coffee with my minister's wife from the church I grew up in. Flowers from a friend. Thoughtful emails and cards. People remembered. They remembered our sadness that day and they poured forth love.

A little over a month after that due date, we had the confirmation we had been waiting for. Pregnant again. Hard to believe it was my fourth pregnancy. We were so happy, so cautious, and for a while, so scared. Wanting to be happy, yet so aware of all that could happen. Wanting to love the little one growing inside of me, yet afraid to give my heart fully in love for a baby we may not meet.

But we did meet her. And hold her. And kiss her. And love her. Oh, my heart, do we love her. God was faithful in the dark, and He is faithful in the light. A lot can change in a year.

For behold, the winter is past, The rain is over and gone. The flowers have already appeared in the land ; The time has arrived for pruning the vines, And the voice of the turtledove has been heard in our land. The fig tree has ripened its figs, And the vines in blossom have given forth their fragrance.
Song of Solomon 2:11-12


Mama2SweetBabyJames said...


Stacey said...

So much can change in a year! I'm holding onto that hope as well. I'm so glad to have been following your sweet story all this time!

Mama S said...

What a sweet little cuddler she is too! I love hearing Abigail talking softly to her and kissing the back of her head...I know she is modeling after her Mommy's example. I love you, Amy June!

amypfan said...

We really must share a brain! I just wrote a very similar post. Happy Mother's Day to you!

Marie said...

I just LOVE that little girl, brings sweet smiles to our faces (mine and Tony's) and it is awesome to hold her!!